A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world

What a beautiful day to be alive :) Thank YOU Lord.

Yesterday, when Isabella, my second grader came back from school, she asked me to have a mother and daughter's moment in the kitchen and make cupcakes. I had some order I had to get done last night and I asked her: - Can we have this moment after I am done with this order here? She was OK with it, then I remembered that on Tuesday night, she goes swimming with her daddy at the YMCA, so I said: - Isabella, Daddy is picking you up for swimming today, if you want to, you don't have to go, you can stay with mommy and we can make cupcakes. She thought for a little bit and replied: 

- I am not sure what to do because I want to go swimming with Daddy but I also would like to make some cupcakes with you. I told her it was OK, we would make the cupcakes another day.

After they left and I had my work finished, I started feeling so guilty for not have stopped and going to have the "daughter and mommy" with Isabella...

 While they were away, I went to the kitchen to do the dishes and clean up, I decided I would make the cupcakes and she would decorate them when she'd come back home, and so I did.

When they were back and she found out I had the cupcakes  all made on top of the stove for her, she was so happy and so thankful :) She said:

-YOU are the best mommy in the whole entire world! She would come once in a while and thank me for making her cupcakes, I think she really understood that I wanted to have the "daughter and mommy" moment but I couldn't, so I did the best I could.

This morning, when she woke up, I always bring her a cup of milk in bed every morning, she grabbed her cup, looked at me and said:

-Mommy, thank you so much for making me the cupcakes last night, I really appreciate it!

All my guilty feeling are gone now and I am so glad that she is only 7 years old but she really appreciates the little things in life. She takes what she can get and move on.

God bless our day!

Zee www.myfirstbirthdaydress.com

"A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity. It dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path."Agatha Christie 

Mom and Dad will come to visit with us!!!!

Hi there :))

How have you been? It's been a while since my last post. I have been so busy lately. Many and many MY 1ST BIRTHDAY DRESSES have been shipped all over the country. So many things going on at the same time that by the end of the day I am exhausted.

My parents are coming to visit us in July. I am so excited about this. My parents have never flown  before. I have decided that instead coming there and visit with them like we do every year, This year I have decided to give my parents the opportunity of flying for the first time, I want them to come to the USA and visit another Country, another culture and spending some quality time with us. I think this is the best gift I could give to the ones that brought me into this world. I am so thankful for having my Mom and Dad still with us. I want them to relax, enjoy and have fun.So, this is what I have been working on lately, Trying to get their passports done and their visa to get into the USA. Now thank Lord everything is over and I have been shopping for tickets. Boy, this time of the year is the most expensive time to decide to do that, but, I think this is the perfect time.

I have been so busy at work. Thank God I have now Juliana on my team, she is taking care of the  website and making sure everything is right. Thank Lord for Juliana, she has been an angel in my life lately.

The last time I posted here, my husband and I were going to Galena, IL to celebrate out ten years anniversary. We had such a wonderful time but, unfortunately, we didn't get to go on a hot air balloon ride, The day was windy and not good conditions for our so well planned trip. But we enjoyed spending some time with each other.

I have been working so hard embroidering #my 1st birthday dresses. I am so happy with the results. I have a dream and I believe that if I keep working hard my dream will come true.

Hope you all have been enjoying your summer vacation and spending lots of time with your little ones.

God bless us all and be with us!

You all have a perfect weekend and enjoy it. Life is a wonderful gift, let's be thankful for every minute that we have of life.

God bless you all

Love

Zee

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Sometimes I work with birthdays dresses, sometimes I work with goodbye pieces...

Today is Sunday evening. I have just gotten back from my bike ride. My legs are really sore, that is what happen when we get older I guess... LOL

I have always been working on First Birthday dresses, pretty garments, but, today I worked on embroidering the lid insert of a casket. Never thought I would do such a type of work someday. I never liked getting close to caskets, seeing one, or touching it, I don't like anything that is related to death, I have this feeling since I was a child. I was always  scared of walking on the sidewalk of a funeral home, it would remind me about losing my loved ones, not afraid of death  myself but, losing the ones I love, scares me so much. I know this is what life is about but, if I can, I'd rather not to think about it. Today, it was different though, I was doing my work with so much love and when it was done I kissed the piece and said: - Rest in peace young man, I pray that you find the light...

 The sad part is, it is for the casket of fourteen years old boy who killed himself over a girl. The entire time I was working on it I was praying that God give strength to the parents of this kid. I didn't know him,  just an embroidery work that I had to get done for the funeral home but it touched my heart. There is no way in the world that one could do this job and not wonder what this family is going through...

It made me feel like holding my kids close to me and never letting them go. It made me think so much about that mommy and daddy...We hear all kinds of stuff happening out there but, we never think that it can happen to us. We parents, never imagine our children passing away first than us.

I guess when we need to get something done, God give us the strength we need to. It was just like when my grandma passed away.

Last time I saw grandma Virginia Pecanha

My grandma and I were very close, sometimes I would get myself thinking, grandma is over 90 years old and how will it be like life without her? I was always scared.

But it happened. I knew my grandma was getting weaker and very sick. My mom told me, Zee, if you want to see grandma  still alive, you should come soon because I have the feeling she wont be here for too long.

So, I decided we better plan a trip to Brazil soon. I got there late afternoon, it was a tiresome trip, over ten hours in an airplane, I was exhausted when we finally got to my parents home. Some cousins were visiting, one of my cousin told me that grandma had been asking about me the whole day, she wanted to see me when I got in Brazil. I told my cousin I would wait until the next morning, when I would be more rested. She said, you should not wait Zee, grandma wants to see you as soon as you got here. So, there I got to my grandma home. She was so thin, sad expression but her eyes brightened up when she saw me. We talked a lot about all kinds of stuff, but for some reason grandma kept asking me what I thought it would happen to us when we die. Do you believe we will be born again? I didn't like that type of talk with my grandma... So she held my hand and told me: - Zee do you remember that vacation when you were fifteen and we went to Sao Paulo to spend couple weeks at your uncle's home? I said: Yes grandma, I do, why are you asking me this?

She then said: I never forgave myself for shortening the trip and wanting to be back home earlier than we planned before. I remember how mad you got about me, you had planned having a lot of fun with your cousin... I always wanted to ask you to forgive me for that, I felt like I ruined your vacation... Can you please forgive me in the name of God?

I was so weird, I said: -Grandma, that was a long time I go, I never hated you for that, I got over it next day, I cant believe you held that in your heart for all these years! There is nothing to be forgiven grandma. I always loved you and was thankful for you...

I couldn't believe the relief feeling that she had on her expression: _ Oh thank God you were never mad at me, I have always thought about that and couldn't forgive myself for doing that to you. I can die in peace now....

We talked some more and my daddy took grandma to her bed.  That same night at 3:00 AM we were called that my grandma had passed way...

Grandma had nine children of her own and raised two nephews, eleven children total. Guess who was the one who took care of all arrangement for grandma's funeral?  Yes, you are right, it was me, the one who is afraid of cemetery, caskets and everything related to death. I even took care of all my grandma's burial place and picked the clothes she was buried with. I was so strong... After all was over with, I couldn't believe all the stuff I did. I was telling my uncles and daddy what to do and how, like a pro. I will always love you Grandma... I know you are resting and enjoying a better life now...

I've learned that when we have to go through something difficult, somehow we are given all the strength we need.

That is what I thought it happened today. It was a sad work but somebody had to do it. The kid used to go hunting with his grandpa and daddy, they wanted to have a deer embroidered on his casket inside. I did it. I am so glad I could do my best, work on a Sunday for a teenager who has ended his life so early...

God bless you...

Zee

Letter to my mom

My Daughter-in-Law, me and my Mom in Brazil

My dear Mom,
tomorrow is going to be Mother's Day. One more year that I wont be able to spend with you. I just wanted to let you know that every day is your day... You are my queen, my model of a perfect mom.
There isnt a day when I dont think of you, I am always mentioning all your sayings and wish I could live closer to hug you. I am very proud of the woman I became because of you mom. I will never forget your words whenever I would get you frustrated.
You would say, "One day you will be a mom and you will know how it feels like when you act like this"

Yes mom, I am a mother now and its my turn to tell my kids the same. I wish we didnt have to wait so long to appreciate you and now I know exactly how you felt whenever we would be naughty.
You went to school only for two years when you were a child but you taught me things that they were not able to teach me in college.

Many times I got mad at you because I couldnt do whatever all my other friends used to because I had to go to church every Saturday and Sunday with you.
Mom, you taught my brother, my sister and I that we had to work to be able to buy stuff that we wanted to. I am very proud to say that I worked as a baby sitter, maid, factory employee, seamstress, I harvested coffee beans, cotton, beans, rice, so that I could buy my own school supply.
You worked hard as well, from 6:00 o'clock in the morning to 6:00 o'clock in the evening. You would come home from work and cook lunch for the next day, you would do the laundry by hand. When our daddy got sick, you were the bread winner, you never complained about the life you had.
When I close my eyes mom, I can see you walking back home from work. We would be outside playing on the street and I would watch you walking toward our house and think to myself, "my poor mom, I wish she didnt have to work so hard"

On your Special day Mom, I will be thinking of you as always, I will call you and let you know that you are the best mom in the entire world. You are my hero, my mother, my friend and  you mean the world to me.

Thanks Mom for giving birth to me, for loving me and for always  being there whenever I need you. God bless and be with you always mom..

Thanks for everything you taught me and thank you for just being you... My wonderful mom

I wish my mom and each one of you, a Happy Mother's Day and God bless every mom in this world.

Happy Mother's Day to you!

God bless